Jesse Spano Freakout Mode

Take away the pill addiction and this is me right now, except I have no Zack Morris to get me thru it, just amazing friends and family which yanno I guess is pretty cool too


So yea essentially I'm a big unstable mess. hmm to begin.

Wednesday I celebrated my last class EVER with some fav's at a Mexican restaurant nearby which was a goodtime, aside from my car door smashing into Kenny's impeccable new car and me feeling like a giant douche about it and him not caring. <3


Thursday after the first years big assessment presentations some of my fav's and I went to good ol' Sneaky's to relax and unwind. It was a grand ole' time, drinking in the midst of a stuffed deer wearing a robe, where the orange for your Blue Moon comes wearing a lovely mold accessory, gotta love it. Here's a pic of us:

Friday I drove to Oneonta for TERPS! Megan and I had a lovely dinner at Athens, then I went to the show by myself b/c Jayson accidentally got Meg a ticket for Thursday. Oddly enough the seat next to me ended up being empty anyways, and I was in the front fucking row, where my my friends were literally sweating on me. It was a great show, my friends always impress me. Unfortunately, b/c technology and I are mortal enemies my phone magically slipped down the crack that is between the stage and the orchuestra, so after a 40ft drop the screen on my phone was donions, so that put a damper on the evening. So when I got out of the show I head back to Megan's where I joined her in drinking, we kicked it old school and had a ghetto dance party to songs such as Juvenile "Back that Ass Up" then wandered to the bars for a ridiculous evening of which I'll leave out the details but ended with me passing out on Eddie after chatting with a kid in a Sylvester the Cat costume. Is this real life?

Saturday I "wasted time" with Megan for hours where I did super impt. things like turn the icons on my mac desktop into Care Bears and labeled them witty things like "World of Possibilities" for Mozilla Firefox. Yup, judge me, it's fine. I then made my way to Took and Hannah's in Saratoga Springs where I fell in love. I'm sofa king happy for them as the quality of life there is to die for. You drive thru a state park to get to their house, they are literally a less than 5min. walk from the main street with endless shops, eateries, bars, and culture. I was beyond overwhelmed. Took and I went grocery shopping like a crazy old couple as usual, then Hannah prepared us a decadent penne ala vodka with cheesy garlic bread dinner. Aftwerard we frollocked around town, during this time I discovered the Ben & Jerry's store and got wicked excited b/c I've been dying to try the Coconut 7 Layer Bar ice cream Crissy told me about for months. Well not only did I try it, I also got their new peanut butter cookie dough, AND ate it on a swinging bench outside the store. Life is wonderful. Here's a dorky pic of Took and I outside:

We then went home, boozed, watched "Don't Mess with the Zohan" which was surprisingly hilarious and Dave Matthews had a pretty significant ridick role in as a terrorist redneck haha. Hannah and I then left to be initiated into the David the Gnome Gang

btdubs, if I could have sex with that hoodie I would. It was ridiculously huge and comfy and if I was closer with Matt Darius I would have totally stole haha.

Sunday we strolled downtown for breakfast at Common Ground where I literally had a "is this real life? I belong here" epiphany, when I was ordering my soy chai latte and toasted rosemary bagel with olive cream cheese (HEAVEN) and the workers were all laughing and loving and this one guy was renaming drinks into Harry Potter characters, then broke out into the Muppet Babies theme song. Yea, I am this guy, I want to be his friend. So after I snapped out of creepily staring at him in amazement we carried on, shopped in cutesy stores, then went home to research if jobs were available at any of the surrounding schools for me to work at and move in with my 2 amazing friends in a wonderful town and pay $275/month rent, and work at this awesome coffee shop as a fun side job as I've always dreamed of working at one.

I eventually drove back to CT, chatted with roomulate, then started night 1 of my week of sleepless nights b/c my mind won't stop racing.

Monday after work one of my favorite students from the Rainbow Center asked me to dinner under the "am I ever going to see you again" context. I hate this. How does one get "closure" when they don't know where they're going next? I love him, it was great, we were there for hours and I scared the bejesus out of Crissy cuz I got home so late and she called as I was literally in the elevator of our building but couldn't reach my phone so it turned on and was muffled and crazy and she thought I was being killed haha.

Tuesday was Cinco de Mayo, and also the day that I apparently have my first full blown Jesse Spano freakout where I cry hysterically from the moment I leave my office until 10 minutes after I'm home (and YES I went to the grocery store during this time and weeped while shopping like a lunatic). It was a long time coming, as while these past 2 years of living very comfortably and finally spending money which I never did in undergrad, and traveling have been amazing I now graduate in 2 days with no job line up, no savings, massive debt, and overdue bills, and my taxes failed to be submitted so that is $800 I was planning on having that will not be around at all. So I'm dead broke, jobless, and freaking out essentially. Once I got my shit together and prepared some festive snacks some fav's came over and we celebrated Cinco De Mayo which was a great time with some great people.

Today I was wicked bored at work like everyone else here, Crissy and I went for a lunch walk that was buggy and hot, but at least killed some time. When I got back a bunch of friends were visiting in my office when I found out my UCONN Connects student (an intervention program for students academic probation) nominated me for Facilitator of the Year and I WON! This couldn't have come at a better time. It meant so much and came as such a huge shock that he nominated me b/c while I've loved working with him and he's had such an impact on me, I had no idea I had an impact on him. I really can't describe the fulfillment that provides, its those moments that make me remember why I went into the field. For the students. <3

Alright, off to have dinner with some fab student workers and Crissy, then visit with Mary as I haven't seen her since the 1960's. I'll leave you with this

GOT SWINE FLU?!

ps GO MAINE!